It was 10 years ago in June that I Graduated from High School. Those years of High School I dreamed of growing up and what my life could have been. I realized I never had a plan or even a goal for that matter, I just wanted to live, away from restrictions, boundries, deadlines and to find what made me happy, how to be happy. I let myself down along the way. I found myself lonely and clung to a guy who made me feel needed. I let that guy destroy the person I was. He broke me and I spent many years trying to put myself together. I fear there are some pieces of me I may never get back, but in many ways, I've felt myself get stronger.
The last ten years have been full of ups and downs and very sharp turns. When I graduated, I never would have predicted all the life experiences I've gone thru. I hope that my experience will help me guide and show my children to expect the best and have high expectations for themselves.
Eventhough I'm not where I thought I would have been when I dreamed of my future, I am very happy to have two beautiful children and a loving Husband. I am Thankful everyday.
In the next ten years, I plan to still be happily married to Matt, Owen will be 17 and hopefully still in school with plans of going to College and Octavian will be 11 and exceling in school. For myself, I hope to become a 911 Operator while studying to become a Psychologist. I also hope that we own our own home, have at least two dogs and own a car newer than 2005! Even if the next ten years don't go the way I planned, I will not loose faith in myself because I've learned to be strong, trust in myself and enjoy life!
A very deep post and thought provoking. It is nice to have your goals for 10 years from now and I hope you can attain the one you have always had, becoming a Psycologist!
ReplyDeleteLoved this post. Definitely good to have goals written down. Here's to the next 10 years. =)
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