The Definition of Family can be many depending on who you ask. To me, Family suppose to be a group of members brought together by love, marriage and birth. Families are suppose to grow together, love each other unconditionally and support each other. Family is suppose to spend time together, make everyone's opinion count for something and not judge each other.
I have no idea why I feel this way about Family because mine was never loving, supportive, caring or together. I was brought into a family of chaos. Two people married who were in love with the idea of Marriage and starting a Family yet having no idea what it really meant or what it would take.
I'm 3o years old and feel like I belong to no one and have no supportive "Family". My Biological Father never wanted children and has continued to make me feel unwanted. He has also told me that "just because we have biological ties doesn't mean we should have to interact. My Biological Mother has always put Men before her children. Even leaving while we were sleeping to be with her boyfriends. My Mother caused me to have a Perminant Disability, yet she suffered no consequence leaving me to suffer them alone with no loving support from her. I was made to feel different and not good enough because I couldn't play sports like my three sisters could. I have three sisters and two of them choose not to include me into their "family". I was abandoned by my own flesh and blood Family for reason I will never be able to understand because I never asked to be brought into this world. My Mother caused my Disability, yet I'm the only one that has to deal with the consequences on a DAILY BASIS!!!
I belong to no one. I have two Uncles and five Aunts who don't even know my full name let alone where I live. I see Cousins only when it comes time for a "Family Reunion" that comes once every five to ten years. We make nice, take pictures then don't speak or see each other for another ten years.
Here I am on my Second Marriage with two beautiful children trying to make a Family the best way I know how, but hell, I have no freaking clue thanks to my Parents who choose to bring me into their chaos trying to find themselves. My "mother" even called CPS on me because she thought it woud fix HER being an awful, unsupportive, absent parent. It didn't.
I belong to NO ONE.
